Selling my Soul, Stifling my Existence
They say that one should change who he is for a girl he likes.
Dont change who you are for someone you like……
Do the same rules apply for friends …???? Is it ok .. or is it rather mandatory for you to change who you are so your friends can live with you … rather the social repurcussions of who you are????
What if your friends are humiliated by the person you are .. or maybe .. as in my case … whatif those friends are just tired of ppl asking you why they botehr to be friends with a nutcase ?? Why do you defend an asshole like him??
What does that do to me ….
Since my friends choose to defend me from the Dictators of Society I have to remodel myself to better fit the social dicta for nothing gives me the right to burden my friends with the responsibility of having to handle my mess ………………….. But what if that mess is something i like or dont care about…..
Im feeling … from friends who dont get who i am to friends who dont want to acknowledge what i am … people who want to change me to better suit their ideal of a good person so they can feel better about who theyre friends with and fele they made hteir friends life better …
Did you .. serisouly … have you made my life better by making me what you think is a better person …………….. i dont care what society thinks ….. you do … so should i too??????
Sometiems loosing your soul is as simple a matter as not letting it fly free and leashing it around the ppl who are supposed to see you in your flight as you tear through the skies of social normalcy and personal ambition.
What if my friends never understood me and partly only a part of who i am … do i have to behave myself to their liking so they can be happy ………………..
the sad answer is YES
we need to chain our emotions so we dont end up hurting those we love for they .. even if they dotn always understand us … they love us…
what i dont like is when they hurt me and themselves over people who dont care about them more than a colleague worries about “that guy who worked here a year ago”.
Sometimes i wonder if its a bad thing to hurt those you lvoe to make them stronger .. to make them harder when theyre not …. to be the bad guy who takes the blame for ruining their life if it will make theirs better … if itll open their eyes ….
What gives me the right to take these decisions for them … what if anything at all ……………
its a thankless world .. and those who care may hurt you .. but dude … they care
sell your soul for them … coz they bloody sold theirs for you !!!